Two days to twenty.. .. arrrhghghgh. I won't be a teenager anymore. Whatever shall I do?

Well, you know, I've got to do it.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Katie
2. Sweetheart
3. Bitch

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. monkiedee (borrowed)
2. sweetdoll (I know, but there was a story)
3. katieleigh

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My hair and intelligence. Somehow I'll make those two synonymous.
2. My sense of humor. Hey, when all guys around you are gay, you gotta have something.
3. My self-esteem. I'm overweight and have many flaws, but you know what? IT DOESN'T MATTER. I'm fabulous just as I am.

THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. arms and hands
2. my prejudices
3. my living through books, instead of really living

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. French
2. German
3. Irish and most other things european

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. the future
2. loneliness
3. Republicans

EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. chapstick
2. music
3. laughter

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. contacts
2. various rings, earrings, necklace
3. a thong

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS (or artists [at the moment]):
1. Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers
2. Queen
3. Howie Day

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Adagio for Strings- Samuel Barber. Absolutely glorious. I cry when I listen to it.
2. Amsterdam- Coldplay. I will always love this.
3. Oh everything. I love everything.

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Relaxing
2. Not singing
3. Driving until I can't anymore. And ending up in a place that I'll never want to leave.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):
1. a relationship
2. humor
3. individuality

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in no particular order) God this is fun. WOO.
1. I'm afraid of life and love and relationships.
2. I've kissed a girl.
3. I'm alone.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (or same) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Strong jaws. Yum.
2. Black men
3. Talent

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Understand myself
2. Go to sleep within five minutes of lying down
3. believe I'm turning twenty in 4 days.

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE PASTIMES:
1. Reading
2. Sleeping
3. Laughing and making people laugh

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Hug a friend
2. Sleep, but not alone
3. Cry

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
1. Opera singer
2. Teaching
3. Being a short order cook and driving across country, stopping to make some money, then moving on. Forever.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION/HOLIDAY:
1. Ireland
2. Hawaii
3. Italy or Greece

THREE KIDS' NAMES: of course, I don't want kids but....
1. Emma Elizabeth
2. Nathaniel James
3. Jacob Alexander

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Be faced with so much beauty, I can only cry.
2. really be in love, and have it returned
3. live

OVERWHELMING EVERYTHING, INDUCING TOTAL MENTAL BREAKDOWN RESULTING IN INACTIVITY. CAN'T HANDLE, MUST SLEEP.

Just got home from work. Tiring tonight and my muscles hurt. But whatev. I went to lunch today at Red Robin with a huge group of friends. Fun as always. Afterward the majority of us went to go see In Good Company. It was a pretty good movie. Funny and mellow at the same time. Back to school tomorrow, so I need to practice my music. That's all for now. Bye.

Wow. It's been a whole week. Many things have happened since last I wrote. Such as going on my first date. Which was cool. And we went out for coffee today after school, so I don't know if that counts as a second. Anyways, I have much to do at school, for school, etc. And I'm sick. Which makes singing strange, and bad since that's what I have to do. For school. Right. Peace.

Looking at how sporadic my posting is, I'm shocked. For so long I was addicted to this thing, checking and posting at least once a day. But now, twice a week may be pushing the barriers. S'okay with me. I have a feeling this will be a most stressful quarter. I'm scared, and I hate being scared. Especially when there's nothing I can do about it. Anyways, I'm going to have to get up relatively early tomorrow for school, so I hope you all don't mind if I sign off. Peace for now homies.

Don't want to go to school tomorrow. Dang. I have finished a book by Dan Brown in three days, have been reading a book I bought today and have made it through a third of it. Also have watched five movies in the past two days. And my head hurts a little. Other than that, life is not new. The good thing about my school schedule is that on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, I have one class, from 1-2:50. So I don't need to get up until eleven if I want to. Love it. Okay, enough for now. Peace.

Merry Christmas everyone. It was a great one, but man am I tired. I think it's time to retire. More later.

Sorry, I have been very distant from this xanga. Update of life so far: three Christmas parties, two Christmas concerts, one day of sleeping in. And a partridge in a pear tree. I need to see everyone before they return to school, unless they don't want to see me, at which point I then won't. I'm working days for the next two weeks, which means sixty five hours, which means much money. Thank God I'll be able to meet my tuition. Then there is this whole procrastinating thing. I do that so well. Damn. We finally got our tree up, our lights on, our "holiday cheer." I just need some new pants. And here I go.

Shit.